I'm 10 days into the new year and I have no real emotion about anything. I literally took my Christmas tree down tonight around 9:30pm. Actually, my tree was one thing I can point to and say it gave me joy. It was kind of unusual. The 2014 tree gave off good vibes and energy which accounts for why I kept it up so long. I plugged it in, faithfully; even during the day when the lights weren't as visible. It made me feel happy.
I still haven't encountered Mr. Right or at least replaced the confused guy that was trying to find himself and eventually told me he was looking for something different. I don't know. Is it sane to still be pissed about that? I mean, I don't feel crazy or anything. I just don't feel acknowledged. This is a totally different space to be in. I just want to tell him that he shouldn't treat people like that. It's kinda shitty to lead people on. And to add insult to injury? I introduced him to sooo many of my family members. It's my own fault. I got caught up. Jerk.
AnyHOO... it's late and I should be in bed trying to get 8 in but sleep is not coming easily these days. Something must be coming around the bin but I don't know what. I'm on auto pilot. Instead of making things happen, things are happening to me for the time being. It's all good. I won't stay here too long. It's not in my nature. I'm too happy and optimistic for that.
Hmmm... maybe I'll watch a movie on Netflix and slowly drift off to sleep. Tomorrow is already here. Now.
Be Well
